Moses Ma's Personal Blog

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Monday, April 28, 2003

A simple Sunday. Slept in late, took a bike ride out to the beach. Took a hillier route than I could have (instead of Fulton to Baker, I went over the Fell hill). When I got there, I gave myself an ice cream sandwich as a treat (breakfast of champions). Headed home because it was getting chilly... needed a hot bath when I finally got back.

Nina was sculpting today, so I just had a quiet evening alone. Made dinner, walked down to the movie theater. Saw Identity, which was less creepy than I thought it would be. More like Memento than Sixth Sense. Then home. What a beautifully quiet day...

Saturday, April 19, 2003

Another poem...

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I have seen her walking


I have seen her walking
walking with such ease
that butterflies will fall asleep
cicadas nap in the trees
I catch her scent in the breeze
as she approaches

I have seen her walking
she walks in cool disguise
she reads a book by Marguerite
she wears a hat from Mozambique
her grace and loveliness complete
I feel a muggy tropic heat
as she approaches

I have loved your beauty
your spirit even more
I have watched
your dancing arms
entice the avatars
your steamy undulations
tighten
the strings on my guitar
I love it when you hide your face
behind the moon
and in stars

Share with me the secrets
your esoteric ways
help me find satori
and take a holiday
You wear the morning like a dress
it shimmers when you're effortless
you've overwhelmed my consciousness
so what can I say?

When I am old and gray
and nodding by the fire
When a smile descends on me
you'll know what memory transpires
you are the fulfillment of desire
and like a funeral pyre
that dismisses all my priors
you're all that love requires
you're all that life inspires

I will see you walking
as I take my final breath
as you quietly embrace me
the opposite of death

Monday, April 14, 2003

Another recent poem:

Winter Chill


they say women are like wine
gradually aging toward beauty
but what of the ones that turn to vinegar?
who will sing their praises?
who will mend their stockings?
who will place pennies on their dead eyes?

she pants in calculated breaths
while a cancer of despair consumes her from inside
three failed marriages behind her
but still wanting, needing, aching
she hides in singles bars
and begs for easy embraces from men
desperate enough to overlook
her barbed wire cunt
their hearts pump freon
bitter with bile
but still she's so horny for them she can't walk straight

she approaches a young boy
so fucking cool with a
hundred and fifty dollar haircut
it's wasted on her
she only has X-ray eyes
seeing only
blood, seminal fluid, saliva, tears

they run home together
and soon, the sweat flies from their bodies
a desperate, parallel coupling
her legs akimbo
as he ejaculates into her
she clutches him like flotsam

for one small instant they can forget their woes
they can remember the joy of childhood
they can touch the meaning of their lives
they can feel the warmth of absolution
they can see the light of God
behind their eyelids as they leap
face first into the void

afterwards, she cried awkwardly in his arms
he's uncomfortable
but far too narcissistic to gnaw off his own arm
hoping instead that she'd fall asleep
so he could make good his escape

He chants to himself
sleep sleep
I have filled you with my warm seed
sleep sleep
let me comfort you with my heartbeat
sleep sleep
an emotional transfusion occurs
plasma from one shellshocked survivor to another
his youth and vigor to her wartorn heart

in the morning
she wakes alone
he didn't leave a phone number

--

I have no idea where this stuff comes from. I wrote this and the poem below, in less than ten minutes. Just flows out.

Another recent poem:

The Tao


you elude me
as I chase you
like a bandit
into a barren land beyond words or concepts
you are my path, my only desire
here
finally
crossing the border between heaven and earth
empty void
brilliant light
in an instant, the idea of thought emerges
and is the mother to all creation
free of hope or despair
I finally penetrate the mystery of your duality
to see what is real
I see you
hiding deep in a cocoon of abstraction
you greet me with a kiss
as I finally open this intangible doorway
to the darkness within the light

--

Got this idea to rewrite the Tao Te Ching as a series of love poems. Interesting, yes?

Saturday, April 12, 2003

Below is my first attempt at "audioblogging". You call from a telephone, and it turns into a voice entry on your blog. Interesting technology...

Powered by audblogMy first audio post

For more info about audio blogging, go to www.audblog.com.

I recently joined Carshare, and have some interesting comments to report...

First, I have to tell you that when I was in college, about a million years ago, I took this course in Utopian Thought, from the famous Socialist Art Pearl at UC Santa Cruz. In this case, we read books like Ecotopia and Erewhon, and wrote papers designing utopian societies. Anyway, my three big ideas were - (1) free and wholistic healthcare for everyone, (2) tear up every other street, and put in neighborhood vegetable gardens, and (3) start carsharing to require fewer automobiles.

So when I saw the first carshare VW bug driving by, it put a warm feeling in my heart. As an experiment, I sold the SUV, and signed up. A few interesting changes in my life. First, the liberal that is buried deep inside this Republican I've become is happier. I feel like I'm using less gas, and making a protest stand. I've written a haiku about this feeling:

what a great idea
use carshare and save the world
one mile at a time

Second, I've noticed that I'm walking more. Instead of getting up late, getting in the car, getting to my meeting in the South Bay in a rush... I find that I tend to get up earlier, walk to the local carshare POD, and instead of getting in... I have a cup of tea or a latte. And when I get back, I usually take a stroll through the boutique street, pick up some groceries at a small local store or deli, and then walk home. Not only is it better physically, but I'm noticing that it feels like I have more time now. The perception of time is so subjective. It really feels like I'm smelling the roses on the walk home. And of course, if I AM in a rush, I just take the bus or grab a taxi.

My lifestyle demands owning an automobile, so this is really more of an experiment than anything else. But what I'm learning is that walking is good, we don't all need cars and if more of us carshared... there'd be more parking in the city, I really like having a cuppajoe at the coffehouse before taking off in the morning to wherever I'm headed.

If you'd like to find out about carsharing in San Francisco, go to www.citycarshare.org.